Even in October...

Can I just get really honest with you for a moment?  I don't feel comfortable sharing things like this, because I know there's a deadly famine and millions of women are being sex-trafficked and who am I to complain about anything...

But I'll admit it.  October is a hard month.

This is supposed to be the cozy, pumpkin-patch-and-cider, enjoy-the-pretty-autumn-leaves time of year, right?

Since losing Dad, October is different now.

It's his birthday month.  There's less sunlight -  the days are getting shorter.  The holidays and the cold start creeping in.

Anyway, I look through Dad's blog when the grief hits.  (This time, I am struck by how funny he was. Joking about how fat butts require longer needles, or getting high-speed internet and finally being able to do two things at once online!)

For Dad, his hard month was April.  He even wrote a post about it.  And like usual, his words reach through time and comfort me today:

I know as a Christian I should be writing inspirational messages of how Christ can overcome, and this I do know. But right now I feel like I am in the valley. And I am pretty sure I don't doubt God, maybe I am doubting myself, like the preacher said Sunday. Sometimes we suffer because we are human, it is part of life. Now that I think about it God has always been faithful (even though I may suffer), as well as my community of believers (friends) who has been faithful......... even in April.

 

Comments

[Doctodd]

Natalie,
I was thinking of your Dad the other day. He would have been excited about the whooping OU put on Texas. He would have been bummed Blanchard beat Tuttle. He would be glad for the Fall weather. And, he would have been good to just sit and talk to over lunch ... that is what I miss.

I am glad we have kept those words of his alive.