Can I just get really honest with you for a moment? I don't feel comfortable sharing things like this, because I know there's a deadly famine and millions of women are being sex-trafficked and who am I to complain about anything...
But I'll admit it. October is a hard month.
This is supposed to be the cozy, pumpkin-patch-and-cider, enjoy-the-pretty-autumn-leaves time of year, right?
Since losing Dad, October is different now.
It's his birthday month. There's less sunlight - the days are getting shorter. The holidays and the cold start creeping in.
Anyway, I look through Dad's blog when the grief hits. (This time, I am struck by how funny he was. Joking about how fat butts require longer needles, or getting high-speed internet and finally being able to do two things at once online!)
For Dad, his hard month was April. He even wrote a post about it. And like usual, his words reach through time and comfort me today:
I know as a Christian I should be writing inspirational messages of how Christ can overcome, and this I do know. But right now I feel like I am in the valley. And I am pretty sure I don't doubt God, maybe I am doubting myself, like the preacher said Sunday. Sometimes we suffer because we are human, it is part of life. Now that I think about it God has always been faithful (even though I may suffer), as well as my community of believers (friends) who has been faithful......... even in April.